I have recently been forced (unwillingly at first) to take a good honest look at my life and what is important to myself and my family. Please don't misconstrue that statement. I have ALWAYS wanted the best for my family but I think sometimes we want something so bad that our reasoning gets blurred and what, at first, seems like a good idea, turns out in the end, to be ...not so good.
I have struggled since I went back to work about 6 years ago to find a job that I could really be happy with. I had a great job in Kansas City working for a pharmaceutical company. I worked there for 13 years until they closed their doors and moved part of the company (my part) back east to New Jersey. After that, we moved to Boonville looking for a fresh start...a place to start a family. We grew to love Boonville even though friends and family were far away and we were here alone with 2 young children trying to meet other people and have some sort of a social life. I basically went from job to job trying to find balance between my family and work. And I must say, I was not very successful. I had a very bad experience at one company that rendered me completely paranoid about ever having a sick child. In which case, we all know is totally impossible of ever avoiding if you have kids.
So, I proceeded to try and find a job that would provide a great deal of flexibility...like real estate. But unfortunately, the market and the timing was not the best. We needed for me to go back to work. As much as I would have liked to stay at home and work on writing my book and manage our rock business...that just wasn't in the cards. At least, not for now. I tried again with a couple of other jobs thinking they would provide the flexibility I craved but they turned out to not be what was right for me or my family either.
My focus had to be on getting a good paying job with benefits for the future of our family, an 8-4 or 9-5 job that provided security for us and our needs. I have come to realize in this journey the past several years that children will endure and be fine. They are much more flexible that we are. And my kids are now saying...."Mommy, I want you to go out and get a good job." I will still be able to help out with my kids class parties and fund-raising events at school. People do it everyday. I kept saying to myself...."How am I going to have a regular job and get everything else done around the house and with kids and business and everything else that has to be done...? There's not enough hours in the day!!" Well, I realized that women and men do it everyday. They manage and they prioritize and the MAKE IT WORK. Everything will be fine.
I've done a lot of self-talk lately. And I've realized that I can make anything work that I want to and my family is top priority to me. They are the ones that matter. All the "other stuff" comes later like writing, or practicing my piano or reading or doing whatever else it is that I feel the need to accomplish. At the end of the day, I want my family to be taken care of and happy. If that is the case, then I've set out to do what I planned to do.
So, on that note....anyone have any good leads on good jobs...pass them my way...ha! This is long and windy and I've said enough. Good Night my friends!